Selfish!?

今天一大清早就接到一通電話，是隆中央醫院的護士長撥來的電話。

她以為我們沒有帶媽媽去複診，就將我訓了一頓。當知道我們連手術日期也定了，語氣就減緩了。可是，她又看到媽媽應該在週四參加一項輔導卻缺席時，她又開始發炮了。

"You are very selfish! You used your mother to take care your children but you didn't take care of her need & feelings."

這是當我說 -- 「我們都要上班，家裡還有孩子／嬰兒要照顧……」，她就開口大罵了。

我當下很無奈，也無言。（還有一點沒有睡醒的迷糊…）

我不關心我媽？我們太自私？

我們都得工作，也是為了養家啊！
我們都得工作，不只是為了自己啊！

如果沒有上班，生活費、醫藥費，會從天上掉下來嗎？

我沒有辯駁那位護士長，我很高興公家醫院有這樣盡心盡力，關心病人的護士。可是，家家有本難唸的經，不是嗎？

我們也是有考量過，跟媽媽商量過才決定不去輔導。

自私，我也希望我會自私一點，叫其他姐姐承擔更多的責任。

健康，就是幸福。

常常有人會埋怨（包括我），生活裡有太多的不如意，工作上有太多不順遂，感情上有太多遺憾……

抱怨，慢慢形成一種習慣。

習慣性的抱怨後，我們就會忘了自己擁有的幸福。

有手有腳只是很基本的人體構造，可是，有人天生殘缺，也有人在震災後被截肢。

有房子有銀子（就算很少），勝於一無所有的人。

有工作有收入（就算很受氣），可也叫作自食其力。

當我們擁有最基本的生、存、力時，我們卻都將它遺忘。畢竟太理所當然了。

擁有健康，就是幸福。

只有健康的身心，生命，就會圓滿。

Malignancy tumor

This is a bad day.

My mom's biopsy report showed that the lump at her left breast is maglinant... In simple language, it is cancer!

The doctor said it has to be remove and the operation date is set for 2 weeks later.

T_T

天災人禍

四川地震好多天了，我一直都沒有寫些什麼。

不是沒有感覺。
不是沒有感受。
不是沒有感情。（畢竟我們的根源是來自同一個地方，流著同樣的血液。）

翻開報紙，每一份報紙都有近乎相同的標題、圖片和文章。

好幾次，看到一些新聞，眼淚都快要掉了。（在辦公室哭好丢臉啦！）

我們只能夠略儘綿力，希望中國同胞會堅強振作，重新建立家園。

lazy Tuesday

Monday is a public holiday because of Wesak Day, I had a long weekend but still felt like I don't have enough rest...

Today went back to office with half of my brain, I feel super lazy... but anyway, I don't have much to do since I'm a new staff in the company.

This is the 3rd week with my new job, SO FAR SO GOOD, this my standard answer when people asked mee: "How's your new job!?"

Don't be surprise that I'm still WAITING for my PC & phone, that's why some of my friends were curious & wondering what happened to mee as I will normally email/call many many people, telling them I got a new job, new company email address & new phone no.

So, my friends, kindly be patient with the "corporate procedures"... hahahaa...

NCS v.s. NSC

Sometimes things happened out of our plan.

I'm suppose to work on an annual huge function in the company called NSC, but in the same time, I need to send my mom to NCS... however, things were running smooth at the end.

Today was the NSC event, basically my assignment was pretty much simple... can do without using my brain... but, I am terribly tired!!!

i can't feel my feets now, after walking / standing all day long, not to mentioned the high heels... :(

Tomorrow is another day, the company having AAN which is a dinner cum awards presentation night.

It was too late for mee when I figured out my closet is short of GOWN!!!

A frustrating day…

I’m very frustrating today.

I brought my mom for mammogram today. First we went to clinic under NCA, we spent 2 hours there, doing physical breast check, mammogram & ultrasound.

After all the examinations, the doctor told mee the lump seems to be “cancerless” BUT we still have to proceed with biopsy for more accurate result.

Then he recommended us to go to GH which is just few blocks away. To our surprise, 1st visit at NCS is FOC!!! Not bad huh!? For the next visit, it costs about RM 130 to RM 180, depends on the services you opt for.

So we go to GH and not to mention that I round and round for more than 20 minutes for a car park. At the end, I failed to find any so I just parked at the roadside with worry my car will get summon… what to do!? Car parks are full with staff’s vehicles!!!

I think this is the beginning of my bad day.

From about 12.30 noon… we waited until 3pm… NO, not waiting to see the doctor. We were waiting for an APPOINTMENT.

To get medical consultation services at GH, we need to go there 1 day for making appointment. Then go another day to see the doctor. Appointment can be on the next day, next week or even next month...

When I saw other people came around our time left the lobby, I felt weird and start wondering. I asked the nurse few times but she kept saying “Belum lagi… Doctor tengah baca… ”

Finally, I figured out that the name of patient in the letter from NCS was wrong!!! The nurse told me I must get a letter before getting any appointment!!! I was very up set, pissed off by the mistake.

However, we got an appointment at last but I still need to go back to NCS for a new letter.

The F.A.T lady at NCS not even said she sorry about the mistake... she just said: Oh, too many patient, confuse-lah...

i am speechless but my heart @#$%&*!

母親節

母親節快樂！

算來這是我生了小孩之後的第2個母親節了。

第一個母親節，貝比才是3個月的小嬰兒，現在，她已經快要15個月了。

我覺得我還不是一個稱職的媽媽。不夠耐心、不夠恆心、不夠細心、不夠愛心。

貝比正在人生的起步，學習大人們習以為常的日常生活，看著她一天天長大，學習各種動作及娃娃語，心裡很滿足。

身為母親，孩子的健康、快樂勝於一切。母親的快樂，就是這麼簡單。

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Birthday!

This is no mistake, today is mother's day, as well as bFtiGer's birhtday!

Yesterday we (mee, ViVi, hubby, my brother & sister) had a dinner with my mom, as a simple celebration for the event.

The restaurant was full house, luckily we went there earlier. Food not bad, price at a reasonable level too...

Wishing all the mothers, good health & happy motherhood!!!

Weekly Review

I think i can make my "weekly review" today, after i've work in the new company for 5 days since last Friday.

As at today, overall is OK. My colleagues are friendly, working environment is good... actually nothing much to share here, hahahaa...

Hope everything will be smooth in future.

等待檢查...

今天為媽媽打電話到國家癌症中心約定檢查時間，結果本週約滿，要等到下週一才有空檔。

心裡一沉。還要再等哦！

過後打電話給媽媽，問清楚身份證號碼等等，媽媽說，診所醫生說不是惡性的，不用太擔心，只是需要作詳細的檢驗。

原來情況不是太糟糕，是我想太多了。是我太悲觀了。可是，我還是很難過。心情鬱悶得想大哭大喊。

我祈求，媽媽安康。

bad news...

Tonight, my mom past me a piece of paper and asked me where the hospital is.

Yes, the piece of paper was a referral from the clinic, where my mom went for medical check-up few weeks ago.

The doctor recommended my mom go for a mammogram.

I was shock and speechless.

I hope it is not a beginning of bad news.

Carrot cake

May 4 is baby bubble's 2-year-old birthday!

I made a carrot cake for her but too bad her parents also bought her a carrot cake!!!

But mine still looks nice :) its taste not bad too...