「孕」遺症

這次的懷孕與第一次不同，而且出現各種各樣的不適症狀。

在懷有身孕1個月後，下巴部份長了很多紅疹，有點像粉刺，而且有點痒痒的。近乎3個月後才消退，可是在4個多月時，臉頰兩邊紅紅一片，皮膚異常乾燥，然後粉刺似的紅疹，又出現了！

接著就是胃口不佳、容易腹脹，吃什麼都不對胃，而且只能淺嚐，不能放懷大吃，否則就會腹脹如鼓，甚至反胃至嘔吐。

有別於他人的晨吐，我的反胃情況在晚上特別嚴重，尤其是晚餐過後，少量的飯菜就會令我滿腹膨脹，結果回家後反而要扣喉誘吐，否則一整晚會輾轉難眠。

正因為這樣，在妊娠初期（0至3個月），我的體重反而下降了7公斤，與朋友在懷孕3個多月時見 面，她們反而以為我在減肥中，整個人都瘦了，孰不知我其實是食慾不振、食不下嚥。至今還是胃口平平，吃不下油膩食物、荷包蛋，喜歡香辣和煎炸食物。

從懷孕滿2個月到4個月期間，幾乎每晚都要用如意油按摩腹部，才感覺略為舒暢，得以安眠。可能肚皮範圍太大，結果將貝比出生時（兩年前）買的如意油都抹光了，另外再買一支新油。貝比眼看媽媽常常「不舒服」要搽油，她也要爸爸為她抹油揉肚子。

即將進入5個月了，希望本週末就會知道小孩的性別，讓媽媽壓抑的購物欲得以滿足。同時希望媽媽的體重不要暴增，維持現狀就很好了！

新年快樂！

While everybody busy to draft their New Year resolutions and review their year 2009, I did nothing but spent all my time with my family.

I wanted to force myself to be more proactive and planning for my future and my career, but I failed. My main focus right now seems to be my daughter & my family, whereas my career is the key to ensure I am able to support my child(ren) in the future. I’m confused.

If I’m not able to perform and excel with my job, I cannot guarantee my career path, thus, I am not able to provide the best for my child(ren). Until this moment, I don’t know what I really want to do with my (working) life. Maybe I am not a working person, I should have been a housewife. Somehow the reality is not allowing me to be one.

My New Year resolution is very simple yet difficult to achieve - everybody in the family is healthy (& wealthy).

Happy New Year!