无题

今天是爸爸的忌日。

原来已经7年了，这么快。我，还没有接受他已离开。

他没有看到我的小孩，没有让她们躺在他的啤酒肚上看电视。

我还是不能接受他就这样走了。

因为无法接受，我在公积金局开不了口，问死者户口提款问题，然后站在公积金局门前流眼泪。多戏剧化。

没有人问我好不好，只问我钱领了没？

所以，我没有办法去办，拖了又拖。直到最近。

我想我爸爸。

Family Trip

Sister in law arranged for a family trip @ Cameron Highlands. The last time I was there with hubby & ViVi was few years ago.

Lil Ming is there for the 1st time. A lot of development project is going on, a lot of change on the hill. Hope to be there with my buddies soon for a reunion.

病

我發現自己最近的情緒不好，常常生悶氣。 

生氣其實也沒有什麼不好，至少可以發洩情緒的不滿，可是生悶氣就是悶在心裡，沒有發洩出來的氣。我想，我病了。 

如果兩個人的expectation不同，就會出現分歧，就會漸行漸遠。如果溝通只有單方面，負責溝通的一方也會有倦怠的一天。 

只會問「為什麼」，可能永遠沒有答案。因為負責回答的人，太累了。
如果什麼都是「理所當然」，久而久之，會不會就「不以為然」，「不以為意」了！？ 

我還是常常想起媽媽最後的那幾天，我還是常常想起牽著大哥在醫院長廊走的最後一段路。我想起當時的心情，我想起當時的無助，我想起當時的無知和無能。我想起我錯過救助的時機。 

愧疚。一直都在我心裡。

想念

在家看香港电视台纪念沈殿霞的节目,看到最后欣宜唱歌给妈妈听的时候,我也哭个不停。

我想念妈妈。

505. Vote for change!

I hope every vote casted is genuine and the justice is always with the people.

We are looking forward for a brighter futute.

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The last general election, me and my mom went to vote together. This round, , is only me alone.

I realised that my memory with mom is everywhere,  is IN my life. Always IN my mind.

In the last election, we voted for the "blues eyes boy", so that the government knew that the people is not fully support them anymore. To our surprise,  he won!

This round, I did the same. And hopefully,  he will win again.

当年妈妈说, 巴刹的人都说要投蓝眼,给政府知道有反对的声音,他们才会有顾忌,才会做得更好。结果,蓝眼爆冷跑出。希望这次,顺顺利利达成目标。

红绿灯的用途

前几天回去探访公婆,经过一段路的时候,薇薇发表了新道理。

你知道为什么会有红绿灯吗?

因为,爸爸驾车久久了,红灯就可以给爸爸rest一下。

Agree?

挫败感

最近两个女儿相继病倒,让我感到很气馁。

对,很气馁。为什么我不懂得照顾两小,病倒了也不善于应变。

我真的太粗心大意,太依赖妈妈了。妈妈不在了,我就留神无主 。

累。

Birthday present from Hubby

A blink-blink bracelet from hubby... I wonder when I can wear it!?

Maybe I need a necklace to go with it. :p

Birthday present from me to me

Happy Birthday! 

Happy Valentine's Day

Daddy cooked dinner for us on V's day!

After 1.5hours of hard work, the dinner is served!

New year resolution

Since we are Chinese, I should have my new year resolution in the beginning of a brand new Lunar year.

I want to be a good mom, starting from today.

I want to be patient, caring and spend more time with my girls.

I want to be happy and healthy for the betterment of my children.

I want to be the best for my children.

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I feel sorry that I am not a good mother for my girls... I always lost my cool, screaming n yelling...

Is never too late, I hope.

I will always remind myself to be better and to be the best. ^^

201314

This is my 1st post in the brand new year!

I love you forever!  (^^)