It's another year...

Another year is gone… very soon.

This year, my greatest achievement is delivered my 2nd baby naturally. She is a happy angel who is cheerful, bubbly, loves to smile. I love her as much as I love her elder sister. Believe me, it is difficult to be “seen” as fair and equal. Really need to be careful with the choice of words & action when dealing with 2 girls at home.

My 2nd achievement is related to the 1st one, I’m proud to announce that I have been breastfeeding for over 7 months! It is a natural ability as well as a gift to both mother and baby. Somehow, to those who tried and failed, hey, nobody will judge you if you are not (or can not) breastfeeding, your love to your child is not judge by breastfeeding.

My 3rd achievement is… I worked for the same company for 2 years! BRAVO! This is the no. X company I worked with, after leaving the press.

In the recent year end performance review, my superior has “advice” me to be more pro-active. But I’m like an old lady who wishes to sit there until retirement… it's sounds like a civil servant!? 
As another year passed by, I’m one year older, with one more daughter, and my one and only wish, or two wishes are… be happy & healthy.

近況二三事

好久沒有更新我的網居了。

各位朋友，我很好。只是黑眼圈在經過三個月的積累後，彷彿不會消散了，看來會陪我一段蠻長的日子。

如果你還不知道，現在的我是職業媽媽，哈哈，好像我有當過駐家媽媽一樣。以前，大姐是由外婆（我媽）全日照顧，我只是在週五晚帶她回家，週日再帶回外婆家。基本上，我只是做了3年半的週末媽媽。

自從五月生了小妹後，我就必須當個職業媽媽了，意即晚上把小妹接回家，隔天清早再帶到外婆家。外婆在大姐一歲多的時候證實患癌，那時外公去世年餘了，可能是心情影響，加上照顧小孩的勞累，結果病倒了。（我一直都很內疚，為了我的孩子，讓我媽病倒了。可是，我的原意是希望她有點精神寄託。）

由於對陌生人沒有信心，外婆的健康又欠佳，我開始當一個名副其實的職業媽媽，晚上回家還要帶小娃娃。現在下班後，如果有節目就要帶baby一起去，或者趕在10點前回到外婆家接小娃娃。幸好，大姐沒有要求一同回家，不然，我應該會顧此失彼，忙個不停。

小妹今天五個月大了，我還在哺乳中。幾時會停止授乳？護士說，最好是授乳至少六個月，我也想。可是，上週開始，我的產量竟然減少了。人算不如天算。希望可以拖多一個月吧！

對於哺乳的事，我一直都是順其自然，當初也沒有很積極要喂或不要喂。生大姐時，由於是剖腹生產，加上第一胎，乳汁分泌比較慢，生產過後三、四天才有奶水，可是大姐已經吃慣奶粉了。這次是自然生產，第二天就開始為小妹授乳，過程是「痛」而順利的。

看來簡單不過的事，授乳，真實不容易。

產後脫髮

敏敏就快滿5個月了，我的頭髮也大量脫落1個多月了。

每天看到床上、地下和浴室的頭髮，真的很難過。為了減少滿地的頭髮，我已經將長髮剪短了，可是情況沒有改善。該不會變成禿頭吧！？希望脫髮情況會快點停下來吧！

忙忙忙

自從有了小B後，就只有忙一個字。

覺得自己變得暴躁易怒，心情很差。

Over-weight baby!?

Today we brought baby Ming to clinic for injection. Doctor said she is over-weight!

She was 3.62kg upon delivered and was only 3.7kg when we sent her for check-up 5 days later.

After 1 month plus, she is 5.1kg.

Princess #2 is here...

My baby girl is delivered today by normal delivery.

Lying in the labour room from 10am until 4.30pm, Mommy finally made it! Baby is 3.62kg and 56cm.

Look at first glance, she is very much look alike her elder sister - ViVi, but she is even more chubby.

False Alarm!?

昨晚不知何故睡不著。

皮膚的紅疹已經退了，可是還有癢癢的感覺，可能是皮膚不乾燥所致。如果塗潤膚露又嫌黏腻，寧可用手抓個不休。

夜裡忙著抓癢不肯睡，直到凌晨又覺得肚子繃得緊緊的，再加上不規則的輕輕肚痛，我竟有點興奮，心想：寶寶決定出來了嗎！？

假如是今天就太好了！我已經等到有一點悶了啦！

結果，至今沒有下文。　　

39 weeks

今天見了婦產醫生，寶寶的頭還沒有下到產道，看來還不打算出來與我們見面。

醫生說，寶寶約有3.2kg，甚於頭胎是剖腹生產，她擔心我在自然生產時會出現狀況，畢竟生產時的壓力會讓舊傷口有撕裂的風險。

她說，等多兩天就要作決定了，所以下週二再去複診。

希望寶寶在週二前就決定來報到吧！

真正的懷孕體驗

話說懷著第二胎了，可是體驗卻與頭胎截然不同。

隨著預產期一天天靠近，心情也越來越緊張。畢竟頭胎是剖腹生產，這一次我要嘗試自然生產了，生產前會有什麼徵兆呢？

回想頭胎懷ViVi時，除了初期的渴睡，我並沒有任何妊娠反應，一直到臨生產，還是可以吃可以喝、行動自如，只是腳部水腫。甚至沒有感覺到子宮收縮／陣痛。

可是這一回，早在兩個月前就常常會肚子緊繃、下腹微痛，如果工作時走路或站立過久，下腹部和腿部都會疼痛。

再加上讓我抓狂的紅疹，吃藥搽藥都沒有什麼幫助，還看了皮膚專科、抽血檢驗。結果，醫生說一切正常，結論是~懷孕的關係吧！看看生產過後會不會好轉，否則才開比較重藥效的藥好了。

兩週前，參加一項公司活動，到學校去了一趟，結果回來後，小腿和足踝處水腫得很厲害，到最近才消退。

每一個小孩都不一樣，帶給媽媽的感覺都不同，我的二寶什麼時候才要乖乖出世呢？

Pru Splash... Batu Feringgi

With 37 weeks of pregnancy, i participated company trip to Penang :)

Since hubby's hometown is in Penang as well, so we took the opportunity to visit my in-laws after the company's event.

ViVi also enjoyed the trip very much especially when she is able to dip in the pool for 3 days in a row.

Actually it was quite tiring to travel with a 42 inches tummy & a 3 year old kid. Also, a bit worry that my baby can't wait until the due date since nowadays, i can feel the contractions more frequently and i'm inexperience with natural birth!

37-week

Today i have a doctor appointment before i leave for company trip.

Yes, even with a huge tummy (from my point of view is normal but some said it is big) i wanted to go... kiasu leh!

Doctor said the baby is about 3kg now, so it is good to deliver anytime now to have a smooth delivery. I've requested a letter from doctor just in case i need to admit in Penang :o

My rashes is getting better but my feet started to swollen, my ex-colleague said it is the sign of delivery soooon... i hope not too soon, not before i am well-prepared.

(i wish for a Gemini baby too :)

35 Weeks

Is 35 weeks and my skin problem becomes more serious... Today, baby is in the right position, hopefully is a "stable" position :) Extimated weigh is 2.5kg.

"Great, you may consider to deliver 2 weeks later!" Gynae said.

"But 2 weeks later is my Company Annual Dinner in Penang! Can i go?"

"No problem... you can deliver in Penang if the time comes!"

This is what Gynae told mee.

After that, Gynae referred mee to Skin specialist and the doctor said it might be Eczema instead of pregnancy rashes... so, i did another blood test to confirm the actual cause of my rashes.

Result next week... the best part is -- i got 6 days of MC!!! (Somehow i did go to work! I am a good employee afterall :)

34 weeks

I'm entering the 34th week of pregnancy.

The red rashes on my body is getting worst and i can't get my hands off it because of the itchiness... the result, i scratched my hands & legs & tummy.

Went to 2 different doctors including my gynae, both gave me same pills that help to reduce the itchiness by not avail. Somehow i am not incline to take pills even though doctors said the pills will not affect my baby.

The only relief is apply some sort of cream to soothe the itchiness but it does not stop to rashes from appearing... :(

乖乖向下轉吧！

連續兩天都有暈眩的感覺，不等明天的復診期，今天就去看了婦產科醫生。

醫生說我的血壓正常，沒有什麼問題。可能是因為睡眠不足，所以有頭昏昏的感覺。

想來也有可能，最近紅疹發癢，有時半夜也會醒來抓癢、搽藥油止癢。而時則是被寶寶的大動作弄醒。

今天醫生說寶寶一切正常，體型也正常，就是頭部不肯向乖乖下轉，現在的位置是頭在右邊，身體橫向左邊，腳在子宮下面。

還有兩個月就到預產期了，寶寶乖乖向下轉好嗎？

煩人紅疹

懷孕進入第31週，可是從兩週前開始，手腳就開始長了一粒粒的紅疹，而且還會發癢，讓我抓（癢至發）狂。

搽風油、塗藥膏都沒有效果，而且還越長越多，尤其是大熱天汗水狂飆後，更加嚴重。

可能是荷爾蒙改變而造成皮膚過敏吧！？

這一次，真的給我全新的體驗。

慢．行

原來我走路快且步伐大。

曾經是運動員的我（真的……雖然現在不怎麼看得出來），從小就習慣了快步走，在工作午休到外頭吃飯時，偶而心裡會嘀咕同事怎麼走路慢吞吞。

最近不得不學習放慢腳步了。

上下班時，走到單軌火車站後，短短的5分鐘路程，讓我氣喘得不得了。

走得快而肌肉拉緊，偶而還會導致晚上出現小腿抽筋的情況。
走得快而加上壓力，大腿也會出現疼痛的情行。

懷胎7月的人，不能逞強啊。

學習放慢腳步，不只是現在，也是日後的功課。

我們往往走得太快，忘記了身邊一些重要的人和事。

好好體會當下的人生，應該勝於追求未知的將來。

C-section!?

Yesterday went for check-up and found out baby is changing position again... :(

I'm 7th months pregnant now, if baby keeps changing position and decided to be breech at last... i might need a cut again!!! sign...

Terrible Two

ViVi近來開始鬧小脾氣，週日晚上常常拒絕回去外婆家，哄騙、責罵都沒有效果，哭哭鬧鬧是免不了的事情。

原以為跨過了terrible two的關口，原來並沒有。截止今天為止，我是處於 -- You have 2 days - 11 hours - 55 minutes - and 46 seconds until your child is out of the terrible twos phase --

不知道是不是媽媽懷孕讓ViVi感覺受忽略了呢？


Terrible Twos and Your Toddler
Ages and Stages

By Vincent Iannelli, M.D., About.com Guide

No one looks forward to the terrible twos, a developmental stage that usually begins sometime in the toddler years.

Although many parents don't expect the terrible twos to start until their toddler is two years old, it is important to note that it can begin anytime during your child's second year, and so anytime after their first birthday, and unfortunately, sometimes even before.
Characterized by toddlers being negative about most things and often saying 'no', the terrible twos may also find your toddler having frequent mood changes and temper tantrums.

To help you cope with this normal stage in your child's development, you should always remember that your child isn't trying to be defiant or rebellious on purpose. He is just trying to express his growing independence and doesn't have the language skills to easily express his needs. This can also be the reason why your toddler frequently gets frustrated and resorts to hitting, biting, and temper tantrums when he doesn't get his way.

By learning more about this normal stage in your child's development, it can make it easier to get through it and make sure that you aren't contributing to more battles than are necessary.

Other tips for helping your toddler during the terrible twos include:

• having a regular routine for meals, naps, bedtime, etc. and try to stick to them each day
  n offer limited choices only, like 'would you like apples or oranges for your snack' and not just 'what do you want for your snack.' This helps your toddler feel like he is making some decisions and has power over things, but he isn't able to choose unacceptable alternatives.
  n learn to set limits about things and don't be surprised when your toddler tries to test those limits to see what he can get away with
• don't give in to tantrums
• begin to use time-out and taking away privileges as discipline techniques
• provide your toddler with a safe environment that is well childproofed to explore and play in. It really isn't fair that your toddler should get in trouble for playing with something he isn't supposed to if you left it within reach.

賀年短訊

匆匆迎來了虎年，今年的農曆新年只有一個「熱」字可言，北馬的天氣尤其乾燥，太陽仿佛要將人體的水份都烘乾了！

在科技發達的時代，賀年卡片還沒有變成歴史，要感謝企業機構，尤其是服務業、保險業仍然會廣泛發送給客戶。其次就是老一輩的人，還會互寄賀卡給至親。

除夕晚上和大年初一收到很多手機短訊，有些短訊來自不知名的人士，大概是我沒有儲存到手機號碼的朋友，抱歉啦，我不回陌生人的簡訊。其實，今年我沒有回到任何賀年短訊。

一來是預付手機剛好過了使用期，還沒有加額，二則是我忙著看顧蹦蹦跳跳的小孩，根本沒有時間去檢查收到的訊息。有時間查看手機時，已經是隔天的事情了。

我懷疑我患上了手機賀年倦怠症。收到短訊已沒有感覺，也沒有回訊的熱情。

或許往好的方面想，至少還有人記得我，會發短訊給我。還有人願意花一分幾毛傳短訊，也是一份心意。

有一天，在不久的將來，我將不會收到手機短訊了，也不會接到賀年電話，因為大家都在 Facebook上生活。

我們都會忘了對方的聲音和字跡。

「孕」遺症

這次的懷孕與第一次不同，而且出現各種各樣的不適症狀。

在懷有身孕1個月後，下巴部份長了很多紅疹，有點像粉刺，而且有點痒痒的。近乎3個月後才消退，可是在4個多月時，臉頰兩邊紅紅一片，皮膚異常乾燥，然後粉刺似的紅疹，又出現了！

接著就是胃口不佳、容易腹脹，吃什麼都不對胃，而且只能淺嚐，不能放懷大吃，否則就會腹脹如鼓，甚至反胃至嘔吐。

有別於他人的晨吐，我的反胃情況在晚上特別嚴重，尤其是晚餐過後，少量的飯菜就會令我滿腹膨脹，結果回家後反而要扣喉誘吐，否則一整晚會輾轉難眠。

正因為這樣，在妊娠初期（0至3個月），我的體重反而下降了7公斤，與朋友在懷孕3個多月時見 面，她們反而以為我在減肥中，整個人都瘦了，孰不知我其實是食慾不振、食不下嚥。至今還是胃口平平，吃不下油膩食物、荷包蛋，喜歡香辣和煎炸食物。

從懷孕滿2個月到4個月期間，幾乎每晚都要用如意油按摩腹部，才感覺略為舒暢，得以安眠。可能肚皮範圍太大，結果將貝比出生時（兩年前）買的如意油都抹光了，另外再買一支新油。貝比眼看媽媽常常「不舒服」要搽油，她也要爸爸為她抹油揉肚子。

即將進入5個月了，希望本週末就會知道小孩的性別，讓媽媽壓抑的購物欲得以滿足。同時希望媽媽的體重不要暴增，維持現狀就很好了！

新年快樂！

While everybody busy to draft their New Year resolutions and review their year 2009, I did nothing but spent all my time with my family.

I wanted to force myself to be more proactive and planning for my future and my career, but I failed. My main focus right now seems to be my daughter & my family, whereas my career is the key to ensure I am able to support my child(ren) in the future. I’m confused.

If I’m not able to perform and excel with my job, I cannot guarantee my career path, thus, I am not able to provide the best for my child(ren). Until this moment, I don’t know what I really want to do with my (working) life. Maybe I am not a working person, I should have been a housewife. Somehow the reality is not allowing me to be one.

My New Year resolution is very simple yet difficult to achieve - everybody in the family is healthy (& wealthy).

Happy New Year!